So I've been thinking alot lately about the things God gifts us with and calls us to. I have to say I think there may be a difference, because in my day to day life I've noticed a lot of apathy. You know there are people in this world who may be gifted with an artistic talent and their drawings are good, but if they aren't called to it and are just going through the motions it remains just good and at times just there =/ I don't say that to be hurtful in any way shape or form. I used to love to do murals and painted on them for hours on end. They filled me with joy and I woke up excited to get started and go at it again. I loved it! It filled many hours during a very difficult time in my life. I would go to the church with my little dog Frodo, and turn third day as loud as it would go and paint and lose myself in this form of worship! It blessed those around me and I was abundantly blessed as well. However, there came a point in time when I didn't feel called to it anymore. It became a chore and though the talent remained, it was different, because it was no longer a form of worship. It was a job just something to get finished because I had made a commitment.
I don't ever want my worship to be given this way. Half hearted and thrown together at the last minute. So luke warm that my Jesus would want to spit it out. Done in a way that brings Him no glory! I don't want to do a last minute job with distractions at every turn and my focus taken from it's rightful place. I want to give it my all! In that vain there have been times in my life when people have decided I'm too much work or that they have to give more time than they should to work with me on projects. True I am a lot of work when I am engaged in worship! I always picture Him sitting in the sanctuary and since He is my "daddy" I wonder does this make Him proud? Has he found joy and Glory in the words I sing? In the brushstrokes I leave? In the prayer I offer up?
I want to leave a legacy of praise to a father who has redeemed me in ways no one can imagine! A Daddy who stood between me and certain death that I 100% deserved! I KNOW that He gave His all for me and so I refuse to give less to Him! I am His beloved and He is mine and in all I do I want to Honor Him! To bring Him Glory! And I will fail without doubt but it will never be because of half hearted effort!
So I say to you, do not be gray, neither black nor white! Do not be luke warm, neither cool and refreshing, or warm and comforting! Do not give halfway to Him because he's never given halfway to you!(Rev. 3:16)
God bless and keep you, Ms. Jill
2 comments:
I really think apathy and half efforts are almost worse for the church than when people step out and let someone who is called to give all step in. It's a hard thing though in today's busy life
I do get that, but like the last couple of weeks for me sometimes we feel far from God and maybe just need a reminder we are only giving a part of ourselves. Sometimes we're unaware of how routine it's become =\
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