Don't ask! I won't play!

   Laying it all down at the altar of God is amazingly freeing. I had a very emotional weekend. I hate when my hubby is gone but I love all of the worship services I attended this weekend. I was surrendered in worship through song and sang all to Jesus I surrender and realized I hadn't. It truly was like a slap in the face! I told him are you kidding me I have every right to be angry. How many times do I have to put up with crap? And He said how many times do I? I am God sovereign and I've told you what to do and you don't do it. It hurts me and yet time and again you do it. So I told Him right there alright I'll let go I just can't be angry anymore and so I spoke with a brother and told Him so. I don't know what is true of our past. I don't know what was said and what wasn't. But, I do know I'm leaving it all with God. And when it begins to rise up again, I will not be party to it any longer. It is embarrassing to know that other parts of the body saw this part was sick and ailing, and I feel it probably stole a little joy from them. I certainly know it contributed to gossip! So as far as it concerns me and my presence I will not listen speak or participate any longer. Love peace and blessings to all of you! Know that we are loved but accountable by and to the Father!
   God bless and keep you, Ms Jill