Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Not yet!

I don't know if anyone even sees this or hears my words but I'm enjoying writing and getting my thoughts down. I wonder as I'm writing this if I'm wasting my time and should I be in the other room doing for my boys. They go back to school tomorrow after the long Christmas holidays. You know I hate turning them back over to the cruel world. I worry for them all the time. They are such cool people and I would hate to see the world reshape them into their idea of cool. Hayden is my youngest and while he is all rough and tumble he has the softest marshmallow heart you could imagine. He is 11 and he still cuddles anytime anyone in the family gets still. He is the same sweet boy that cried and wanted to stop the movie when curious George was put in a crate by none other than as Hayden put it "his daddy" with the most disgusted look on his face. Hayden is fighter and like his Daddy he fights for those he loves or who have no one else to fight for them. He is so quick to laugh he is just a giggle box and that laugh is infectious. It is impossible to be grumpy with his joy all up in your face. lol. I love that he is confident to be that little man soft and hard all in one little brown eyed boy! And then there is my oldest Chance. He is precious to me in ways I can hardly express. He has the biggest and truest heart. His love is so absolutely unconditional. He cannot stand for someone to be hurting and there to be no solution. I cannot tell you how many times I have come home to him running down the stairs saying mom we have to pray for this girl/boy at school. Chance has autism and while he doesn't get allot of social cues he gets kindness and compassion like nobodies business! He is 15 soon to be 16 and I have seen changes in him. He is not as confident as he once was. He is not as trusting as he once was. See people can be cruel when you are different and so for Chance cruelty has reshaped him. However, it has not changed the core of who he is. He is brilliant. He is kind. He is loyal to a fault. I could learn so much about forgiveness from him. I pray as I send them back into the world tomorrow they will be covered by God's unlimited grace and goodness and I pray the same for your kiddos too.

                                                                                                         God bless and keep you

                                                                                                                      Ms. Jill

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

This was so wonderfully said. And yes, I think you do speak for all mothers. We all hope and pray that the world will not change our children. You kids have such a great foundation that I'm thinking that they will change the world instead of the other way around. I am blessed to have been one of Chance's teachers and I wish I would have had Hayden. God Bless you for being such a good mom.

Lynette Huck